School is so freaking insane. Seriously. School hasn't even started yet and I am being faced with life changing decisions that have to be made. After being depressed and sort of "out of it" for so long, this is weird. I am at that point, i mean i am at the age where the decisions need to be made but they are still scary and i am uncertain about both choices. That sort of crazy mess. 
But I am trying, which is more than i could have done a couple of months ago so i still feel that things are looking up. 
I am missing my best friend in California. We don't really talk very much anymore. I miss her terribly. It sucks when shit like this happens. I want it all to be over and settled. I just want to be done. All this nonsense in the middle is not fun. Maybe if I had a life and friends things would be better, but they are not so I am pissed and depressed and not the person I am want to be. And that is super sad to me.


I could use some words of kindness. Some words of wisdom are always welcome too :)