...Is so stressful it makes me want to cry. 

I am reading a lot again. I do this when I stress. The ultimate escape. Fabulous wonderful escape. But escape nonetheless. I also stayed up last night in order to watch my first lunar eclipse. It was pretty fabulous. It is so weird, it looked like a giant sheet was being VERY SLOWLY pulled across the moon. It was so bright and then all of a sudden it wasn't. Pretty amazing :)

I do not want to go back to school. I have to though. I wanna be smart and I want to get a job and grow up and be responsible and have fun. The steps to getting there though are freaking me out and pissing me off. Seriously, it would be so cool if it could all just suddenly become easy, ya know? 

I really wish I could drive. I am working on it. But it is a pain and annoying and frightening. I am so sick of being scared of every little goddamn thing. 

Christ, what is so fucking wrong with me?